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Be the friend

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Being a friend it can be hard these days it is either trying to get information from you and hurt you with it Also the other kind wants something from you well I reached out to someone I never really talked to in a long time I normally just be formal you know happy this holiday but I knew this person is on the spiritual side which is a goal of mines to part of believing is knowing someone up above is there with you I always have believe it just I don't know the prayers I know the stories I know I grew up with family with great faith So I contact asked for a prayer on peace out of no where saw was on so send a message I myself is trying super hard but this pain doesn't go away my disparate of these emotions is where I am trying to do figure it all out I don't like to feel embarrassed which I have happened to me with a female I have known since 9th grade people would see you in so much pain instead of asking you or even wanting to be there you are there drowning in I cant go…

Love is not my fault part 2

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When you keep crying over love you become going through is love I didn't get it right why because you want to find answers The reality is not you it is the other person I had been blaming myself for am I the wrong one here Am I missing something as I think these thoughts I came to hey you no you are not in fault some people are not your responsibilities I know I am not use to losing which that is the biggest factor Also how one can feel for someone you don't ever feel for anyone it is too hard but once you do you say is it me No feeling love for someone is not a shame the real shame is the other person who made you feel love should of never I have been saying everything of this love I keep asking people did I do something they say no I asked the love he said you are more than enough more than anyone could ever ask for I don't know you can ask a million people it is ourselves to stop being so hard on our self Love can be a lifeline sometimes you beat with it and without it …

Pretty Hurts

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Perfections can get us all one way of another I thought about BeyoncĂ© song pretty hurts I love the way she didn't shy away from it even she is the eyes of many people the most beautiful person in the world might not be how she sees it or she gets pressure to look a way Why do we let it get to you? Most of it is comments from there you become in this self hate As myself I relate is I am known of my outside never nothing more I think guys and females all get it the guys oh you gotta have this manny look they have to be that bad boy and still have not too manny Females we have to have long legs we are looked from what can undress you by the guys eyes You have to be girl next door yet be a run way model What is miss pretty comes in all forms short females like myself we don't have to hate not being born a tall legging girl The chest the size you wear to the weight you weight but it comes down being happy not someone else neck picking you pointing your so call imperfections when t…

That one thing that changed your mind about yourself

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Have you ever found yourself keep going right back to the thoughts you been fighting so hard to not go right back to it I been not doing so well with it everything my positive life mindset has been gone I did it all unblock my heartbroken ex I began to think about everything I thought what is wrong with me he has different accounts with random people I have gone through this road so many times I know I shouldn't I lost my confident I needed to ask him I needed to talk to him I needed him in my life Here it went I saw I can write him what he did made me feel as if nothing changed said can we see each other I said no I couldn't do it he would know everything will be on display I would get stuck again I asked him my questions I went on and on of everything why and how and am I? I started crying while writing him I next told him was I no one? yeah I asked that he said no you mean so much I asked about her why? he said was his stupid act because I was having a hard on something wa…

Empowered Hypnosis Wellness Centers App

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Hey everyone I know I have been talking about mostly healthy apps this one right here is when you are having a big anxiety attack I have got this one checked so it is approve well this app has many different subjects Since anxiety is trigger all in different events one for all doesn't seem right I have used this app my self when have to go on the taxi I start to feel my heart racing from thoughts I had to deal with at the time The reasons why I recommend this app is because sometimes you are at a place you cant help but feel the way you do you cant just run away you cant at that moment talk yourself to breathe out having a self talk Each trigger you might be experience you can put on the app on play with some headphones as your self care At times you might feel an emotions you need some help not always the person around knows what to do or say to you I am as you know recourses to help is the better I didn't want to post anything I didn't get it checked myself by a  profes…

Prima Donna alter ego vows

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She is the queen of vocing her truth sings like her life is a musical She is determined to be the greatest she has ever known She doesn't take orders so well The prima Donna has four things her soul that no one can't take away from her second her voice which she will never stop using three her ability to be her true self with no care anyone's doesn't approve fourth the heart of gold when she loves she becomes so unforgettable where you cant fit into a movie the mark of her love has been printed on her prays She comes with a warning don't fall for her or you will be hers forever don't even try to tell her who to be she will put on a show make you regret you ever tried She loves everything that makes her all she is the dark the tears she put herself on stage so clear she sees everything life has put her through she still is even more proud Says now watch me everyone stand up be proud cry if you have to but must stand up Life isn't over stand say it with me I…

Daily Check List #13

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A short term list I thought making this one different since I have put a long term how about a short term Hanging out without having to worry is something I been going through because I tend to think too much what this hangout means to this person The reason is I have been there the word hangout is stressful with the meaning to it Some take it as a romantic way while others is about chilling not more the other one is for information I have always been straight forward with my intentions I am big everything no drama my trust kicks in as well my anxiety so not to think about any of it My idea of the term is just to chill but I faced with people where it was the idea of romantic way  Clear from what if's Making a beautiful playlist is something I been thinking of doing I already made one for the haters and one for not giving up playlist I want to make a playlist is about songs feeling pretty beautiful inside and out kind of a idea of mines plus it is fun going through music putting…